Isn't is strange how the words of others can sometimes rattle around like a pebble inside of a coke can inside your mind. Words that create self-doubt, self-loathing, self-destruction. Erase those words, unless they are true? My mind is my worst enemy, spawning and entertaining thoughts that should just pass through without a moment of hesitation, but they don't. The thoughts linger and fester, creating more thoughts.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Too much to do, too little time.
Sadly, I forgot about my blog after Spring Break. This is fairly normal behavior for me. When my brain gets overloaded with too many obligations, the small things that are probably the best for my mental health are the first to go - so, the blog went. It is that time in the semester where everything just seems to be piling up around me. The books, the papers, the appointments... they all just keep piling up until, finally, I am surrounded in a sky-scraping cubicle of stuff to do. I realize that the books will get read (or skimmed), the papers will get written, and the appointments aren't that important anyway... but right now, in this moment, I just feel overwhelmed.
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I can totally relate! I'm famous for getting too many things to do piling up all around me (you should see me dresser right now!) and then taking the afternoon off because I just can't deal with it all right now. My strategy lately has been to concentrate on just one project at a time. It helps, but it takes practice to get all those other things to go away for a while. And then there are those things that you just can't make go away (like children or pets), but those you just love and pick up the project again later when you get the chance.
ReplyDeleteI hope that you have a better week, and yes the papers will get written, and sometimes appointments are the least important, sometimes. You can and will do it.
ReplyDeleteSometimes we all feel this way - that's why they make tylenol. But really, I think that you make a good point about how we are affected by other people's lives. Sometimes some stray comment or action someone else makes mindlessly seems to strike a chord in us and we can really get down on ourselves. I hope you don't get too far down on yourself and are able to knock that pebble out of your mind- and find some peace.
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